A window into my mind....

I AM...reposted from a news group

Mon, 15 Aug 2005 23:20:10 GMT

"I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother
that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a
transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful,
tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let
my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away
from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I
wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me
in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able
to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before
graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out
we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to
avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore,
nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now
live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow
suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also
a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to
because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to
show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until
someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as
they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much
better person if I didnâ€™t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe,
but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love."

Repost this if you believe homophobia is wrong.

DUH

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 16:39:24 GMT

I'm all for teaching DUH
in America's schools!

*giggle* I love it! Finally! Someone who made me laugh about all the bullshiat that's going on in this world.

It actually gives me hope to see how many people oppose ID. It seems only the right-wing nutjobs (ie the "Religious Right") supports it. Everyone else pretty much says this whole thing is shit, its not science, wake up! what are you trying to do to our schools?

The whole thing just makes me soo mad.... how can anyone possibly think ID is science? I take that back, how can anyone who is educated think that ID is science? Its not provable, its not testable, its a matter of faith.

Support the Flying Spaghetti Monster! http://www.venganza.org/
Another fun link: Charles Darwin has a Posse! http://www.swarthmore.edu/NatSci/cpurrin1/evolk12/posse/chazhasaposse.htm

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 20:22:14 GMT

hehe.... time to update the map. and most of this was from this last week.... VEGAS ROAD TRIP!

create your own visited states map
or check out these Google Hacks.

Geekness

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 17:33:09 GMT

The Deviant Geek
You answered 80% of the questions as a geek truly would.

You're a geek and you know it. You've got all sorts of fringe hobbies
and socially unacceptable tendencies. Chances are, whenever possible,
you hate to be grouped with other people and sometimes go out of your
way just to be different.

You're smart too. You're more willing to depend on your own
brainpower to solve problems, instead of relying on others to pull you
through life. You probably read a lot, and generally enjoy learning new
things.

So what's it all mean? You may be considered by some to be
uncool, but you probably don't care either. In social situations you
may be either slightly passive or slightly loud (geeks always fall into
the extremes).
In a nutshell, you answered enough questions correctly supporting a
geek philosophy to be considered a more potent geek than 60% of the
population.

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 94% on geekness

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Essay on King Arthur vs. the Dragon/Dragon Reborn

Thu, 12 May 2005 21:15:39 GMT

This is a Wheel of Time related article, if you don't read Wheel of Time, it won't be interesting. I'm warning you now.

Before beginning a comparison, some background information must be given.

King Arthur is a legendary figure from the history of Britain. He is remembered as the greatest king the world has ever seen. The legend does have basis in fact, and was used by later Anglo-Saxon kings to validate their rule, as claiming to be descendants of Arthur. However, "[t]he Anglo-Saxons themselves were decended from a conquering race - their ancestors had invaded and settled in Britain from about AD 450 onward - and Arthur was thought of as a king of the Britons who possessed the country before they overran it.... He belonged somewhere in what is now called the Dark Age, after the Romans, but before such Anglo-Saxon sovereigns such as Alfred" (Ashe 14-15). It should be noted, however, that Arthur was nver an officially acknowledged king. Rather, he started as a minor noble or war leader, but rose to prominence through his battle prowess. It is speculated that he led a moble cavalry force to turn back the invaders (Ashe 64). This force is likely to be the basis of the 'Knights of the Round Table,' and probably why so many victories all over England and Scotland are attributed to him.
The Saxon invaders were barbarians. At this time, immediatly after the fall of the Roman Empire, the 'light' of civilization was nearly extinguished. One of th last bastions of civilization were the Britons, who kept what they could of the traditions of the Roman Empire alive. What Arthur did, through holding them off for several years, was keep civilization alive through this 'dark' time, so when the Anglo-Saxons did eventually overrun the Britons, they had advanced and were no longer barbarians. In this way, Europe never did fall totally under the shadow of the Dark Ages.
Lews Therin Telamon, the Dragon, was a great leader during the later part of the Age of Legends. He was T'amyrlin, and summoned the Nine Rods of Dominion. He was the most powerful channeler during this time, and when the War of Power broke out, after the drilling of the Bore, he was the primary leader of the forces of the Light. He kept the Shadow from over running the land until the Bore could be sealed. He then led the Hundred Companions (actually numbering 113) to Shayol Ghul (the site of the Bore). There they placed the seal on the Bore, trapping the Dark One and the 13 Forsaken inside. However, the seal was incomplete, and the backlash tainted saidin, causing the surviving Companions and LTT to go insane, thus starting the Breaking.
Due to his insanity, Lews Therin killed everyone whom he loved, who loved him, or contained even a drop of his blood, thus earning him the name 'Kinslayer.' When he realized what he had done (through the devices of Ishamael, who was never fully trapped) he committed suicide by drawing too much of the power and creating Dragonmount and the island of Tar Valon in the process. He was porophesied to return at the time of 'mankind's greatest need,' most consider this to be when Tarmon Gai'don will be fought. The prophesies say that "On the slopes of Dragonmount shall he be born, born of a maiden wedded to no man." (Karethon Cycle). This is only one part of the Karethon Cycle, also called the Prophesies of the Dragon. Rand al'Thor was the result of this. He was born on Dragonmount of a Aiel Maiden of the Spear, and is now reavealed to be a very strong channeler, and the Dragon Reborn (DR) Through the few years after discovering his destiny, he has become a great leader within the Westlands. He is King in Illian, Ruler in Tear, Cairhein, Aiel Car'a'carn, Ath'an Miere Caramoor, regent in Andor until Elayne Trakand claimed her rightful throne, and is gaining power elsewhere.
Many similarities can be seen between Arthur and the Dragon/DR even in these breif bios, especially if the Anglo-Saxon forces are likened to the forces ofShadow during the War of Power. Added to that, there is a folk belief that Arthur will return. This belief first came to historical attention "[i]n 1113, for example, [when] a party of French preists visited Bodmin in Cornwall. They had holy relics with them. A Caornishman with withered arm asked for prayers, hopin that the relics would do his arm good. They chatted together, and the Cornishman told them of the British hero King Arhtu, who had lived in Cornwall in distant times and fought the Saxons... and was still alive. The preists laughed at this. They were startled to find that the towns peple backed him up" (Ashe 15). Others believed that Arthur would return in person. "If [he] was to [do this], then he must be in some enchanted hiding place. Perhaps Avalon was not Glastonbury, but the far off magical isle hinted at by Geoffrey of Monmouth? The poet Lydgate favoured this view. Arthur, he declared, was 'a king y-crowned in Fairye' who would reappear ro reign in Britain. But there were local legends that suggested a different idea. Arthur wsa asleep in a cave, and would wake up when his country needed him most. Many of his kinghts were asleep too, in hte same cave or other caves, and would join him when the hour struck. One of the most durable of these legends said that his own cave was in the Somerset hill called Cadbury Castle, and that Cadbury was the site of Camelot" (Ashe 28). Geoffrey of Monmouth was the first to write a history of Arthur, entitled La Morte de Arthur. Fairye is the land of enchantment, and the home of the fairy-folk, also known as Tir Na Nog in the Gaelic Tongue. This land can be seen as the legendary equivalent to Tel'aran'rhiod, or the World of Dreams, where Heros of the Horn wait for rebirth. The cave that Arthur is said to lie in could be considered the inside of Dragonmount, where LTT is entombed, and on the slopes of which Rand was born. Arthur's Knights could possibly be other Heros of the Horn, ones bound to the wheel, always to be reborn when the world needs them. It is possible that the knights have already been spun out, and will be available to Rand when the hour of the Last Battle arrives.
The epitaph on what is generally agreed to be the real Arthur's tomb reads: "Hic iacet Arthurus, Rex quondum rexque futurus - Here lies Arthur, king that was, king that shall be" (Ashe 46). This is similar to a passage in the Karethon Cycle: "And his paths shall be many, and who shall know his name, for he shall be born among us many times, in many guises, as he has been and ever will be, time without end" (Karethon Cycle). There are other similarities as well, though they are perhaps not as major.
Names of close associates of both Arthur and Rand are very similar, especially those from Andor, most notably the Emond's Field and The Andorian Royal family (both Trakand and Mantear)
Egwene al'Vere - can be considered very similar to Guinevere. However, objections to this have been raised due to Rand and Egwene's relationship when compared to the Arthur/Guinevere relationship. Rand and Egwene were to be married, but later discovered that they did not love each other "in that way." Arthur and Guinevere were married, however, Guienivere later fell in love with Lancelot and conducted an illicit affair with him. This Guienivere/ Lancelot affair can be seen in Egwene's early attraction to Galadedrid, who can be related to Lancelot/Galahad. However, in WoT, Egwene and Gawyn later fall in love.
Galadedrid Damodred - Elayne and Gawyn Trakand's step-brother, son of Taringail Damodred and Tigraine Mantear, former Daughter-Heir to the throne of Andor. Half brother through Tigraine to Rand. Galad is very similar to Galahad, the pure knight of King Arthur's Court, because he will do whatever he feels is right, no matter who it hurts, even himself. Galahad sat in the Seige Perilous, the seat at the Round Table which was reserved for one of pure heart. He is the only Knight to obtain the Grail. In some tellings, he is Lancelot, in others, he is Lancelot's son.
Elayne Trakand - Daughter Heir of Andor, currently securing the throne after her mother's apparent death and actual abdication of the throne. Elaine, in Arthurian legend, was Queen of Garlot, and half sister to Arthur. However, in WoT, Elayne and Rand are only distantly related at best, since both are children of Andoran nobility.
Gawyn Trakand - Elayne's brother and her First Prince of the Sword, when she fully ascends the throne. Gawain is a knight of the Round Table, and most famous for his part in the Green Knight adventure. He is considered a fierce fighter and like Gawain, is nobility. However, only the fact of noble birth and their names link them together.
Nynaeve al'Meara - Wisdom of Emond's Field, later raised to Aes Sedai by Egwene al'Vere when Egwene is raised Amyrlin of the Tower in Exile. Chose the Yellow Ajah because of her strong ability to Heal. She rediscovered a stronger form of Healing (5 thread) than the form most commonly used by the Aes Sedai of today (3 thread) and is the strongest channeler of saidar alive today, bar Alivia, a former damane. Nynaeve, in some accounts, is another name for the Lady of the Lake, an extremely powerful magical figure. This would fit, as Nyneave al'Meara is an extrememly powerful channeler.
Tigraine Mantear - Mother of Rand, former Daughter-Heir of Andor. Left her husband, Taringail, and son, Galadedrid, on the advice of Gitara Moroso Aes Sedai, to join the Aiel Maidens of the Spear. Died after giving birth to Rand on Dragonmount during/just after the Battle of the Shining Walls at the end of the first Aiel War. Yggraine is Arthur's mother.
Merlin is Arthur'sguide and teacher. He teaches important things in life, such as politics, and communion with nature, though Arthur had other teacher in battle arts. Moiraine Sedai teaches and guides Rand, she taught him all he knows about politics, while Lan, her Warder, taught Rand the sword, so Rand is now a now blademaster (or close to it). Rand also had another teacher. Asmodean was tricked into teaching about saidin, mainly how to channel it, because without a male teacher, Rand would likely have died. However Asmodean was still a Forsaken, even though he was bound in the Power and forced to keep up the charade of being Jasin Nateal by Lanfear.
Arthur met Robin of the Wood, who is associated with the Green Man."He is the watcher throught the leaves, the burst of laughter in an empty clearing, the joker in the ambush" (Anderson 29). Robin helped with Artur's first great adventure, which also happened to be his first meeting with and battle agianst Morgan Le Fay. For full story, see T.H. White's The Sword in the Stone. Rand also met the Green Man, however this Green Man was Somesheta, who also can be likened to the legendary Green Man (see essay). This meeting was also Rand's first major adventure against the Forsaken, and in this case, the Forsaken to be likened to Morgan La Fey, since both are villains in this case, and both are strong in magical powers (in the Forsaken's case, strong in saidin).
Tar Valon, home of the Aes Sedai is very much like Avalon (see Avalon essay). The similarities only increase when Arthur and the Dragon/DR are included. However, the most pertinent similarities have to do with Excalibur and Callendor. Callandor, an extremely strong male sa'angreal, was the sword in the Heart of the Stone of Tear, Rand had to pull the sword in order to prove he was the Dragon Reborn. Arthur, on the other hand, had to pull Excalibur from the stone to prove him king. Callandor manufactured by Aes Sedai, it is a sa'angreal, like Excalibur, a sword with magical powers. Avalon is also where Arthur is buried. As stated before, in the process of creating Dragonmount (and killing himself), LTT created Tar Valon.
Finally, Arthur died at battle of Camlann, in southern England, against another noble of the time, Medraut, also known as Mordred. In the romances, Mordred is also Arthur's son. In "537 or 539 - The Battle of Camlaun in which Arthur and Medraut were slain; and there was death in England and Ireland" (Ashe 54). There is a battle coming over the Succession in Andor at Caemlyn. However, it has yet to be seen if this is a major turning point that has a lot to do with Rand.

Works Cited:
Ashe, Geoffrey. All About King Arthur. London: W.H.Allen. 1969.
Karethon Cycle. http://www.geocities.com/whiteajah00/karaethon.html
Anderson, William. Green Man: The Archetype of Our Oneness with the Earth. London: Harper Collins. 1990.

Lol.... I knew this already

Thu, 12 May 2005 15:45:02 GMT

Your Political Profile

Overall: 20% Conservative, 80% Liberal

Social Issues: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal

Personal Responsibility: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal

Fiscal Issues: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal

Ethics: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal

Defense and Crime: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal

How Liberal / Conservative Are You?

What ever happened to privacy and freedom?

Thu, 12 May 2005 15:33:53 GMT

Some days I'm ashamed to be an American, and I look at the elected clowns and I just think, you know, Che Guavera got it right. Viva la Revolution!

How many of you out there know that the Senate passed a bill 100-0 that would implement a national ID card that the Secretary of Homeland Security would have pretty much unilateral authority over what goes on it or in it. There is discussion that there would be an RFID implanted in the cards. Something that would make it very easy for the government to track citizens. In addition, there would be private information encoded in "common machine readable technology." Given the current climate of greed and profiteering, how soon before every store asks for the national ID and has a database of customers, whose private information would be sold to turn a buck? Not to mention the ease of identity theft if more information is put on these IDs.

I don't usually go for the conspiracy theories and the usual "the government is out to get me" paranoia, but this is something I find scary. Very very scary. These cards put us in the ranks of China, the Soviet Union, and Vietnam requiring national ids. How long before everyone is asked to show their papers when boarding a subway, a bus, or even just walking down the street looking suspicious? We are headed toward a totalitarian regime, people! What happened to "Land of the free and home of the brave" ? We are allowing the government to take our rights and freedoms away one by one in the name of "security." Guess what, those who wish us harm will find a way to counterfeit these IDs. The criminal sector find ways around everything. So we are allowing our freedoms to be gradually taken away for the mere illusion of security.

No thank you. Not for me. I'll take some insecurity over lack of rights. I was born into the United States of America. A free state that has a series of checks and balances to keep one branch of government or one person from getting too powerful. And one by one we have seen these checks and balances eroded over the past four years. And those who are perpetrating this crime against our great country are those charged with protecting it. The count on the citizenship to feel helpless, and foster the culture and climate of fear. We need to stand up for ourselves, get informed, get involved, and speak our minds. We are not helpless to stop this. We still have a voice! Write your senator, write your Congressman! Tell them that you will not stand for this invasion of privacy! If we all raise our voices as one, we cannot be ignored!

Articles to read and sites to visit:
http://www.schneier.com/blog/archives/2005/05/real_id.html
http://www.wired.com/news/privacy/0,1848,67471,00.html?tw=wn_story_top5
http://news.com.com/FAQ+How+Real+ID+will+affect+you/2100-1028_3-5697111.html?tag=st.num
http://www.unrealid.com

Sun, 05 Dec 2004 21:54:26 GMT

Your Beauty lies
in Plain Sight. Plain, simple and the girl next
door. People tend overlook you as you are the
"normal girl", but you're actually
very beautiful. And you have plenty about you to
set you apart, but more that
lets you blend. People love the stability you have
because as others may come
and go, you will always be there and you may always
be the same. You like simple
things and that's what people like about you. You
most likely enjoy things most
consider normal, like movies, shopping, that sort
of thing and are very friendly
and probably have many friends. You are sweet and
kind and that shows on you,
but you're also strong and not very naive. You're a
rather well-rounded
individual. Even though some people pass you off as
just another girl, shrug it
off because they don't know what they're
missing.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Element:
Earth, Light Animal: Cat Color:
Pinks, Blues, Browns Song:
Girl Next Door by Pilot Expression: Simple
Smile

Gemstone:
Alexandrite Mythological Creature: Fox
Demon, Hobbit Planet: Jupiter Hair
Color: Light Brown Eye Color:
Brown

Quote:
"To the world you may be one person, but to
one person you may be the world."

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blue

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 22:59:39 GMT

you are steelblue
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Your dominant hues are cyan and blue. You like people and enjoy making friends. You're conservative and like to make sure things make sense before you step into them, especially in relationships. You are curious but respected for your opinions by people who you sometimes wouldn't even suspect.

Your saturation level is medium - You're not the most decisive go-getter, but you can get a job done when it's required of you. You probably don't think the world can change for you and don't want to spend too much effort trying to force it.

Your outlook on life is brighter than most people's. You like the idea of influencing things for the better and find hope in situations where others might give up. You're not exactly a bouncy sunshine but things in your world generally look up.

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Tue, 23 Nov 2004 00:00:26 GMT

You're Pale Fire!

by Vladimir Nabokov

You're really into poetry and the interpretation thereof. Along the
road of life, you have had several identity crises which make it very unclear who you
are, let alone how to interpret poetry. You probably came from a foreign country, but
then again you seem foreign to everyone in ways unrelated to immigration. Most people
think you're quite funny, but maybe you're just sick. Talking to you ends up being much
like playing a round of the popular board game Clue.

Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

understanding

Sat, 18 Sep 2004 04:57:14 GMT

if any of you want to know more about me, you have to understand one thing

I hate feeling trapped and helpless.

I hate feeling out of control.

I hate not being able to change things.

Lets review shall we?

I hate Columbus, but I'm stuck here for the next 3-4 years if i choose to get my Ph.D. Changing schools at this point would be extremely difficult. So I'm trapped.

I hate this house. I hate the pot I can smell even with my goddamned door closed. I don't know who's doing it, but i want it to fucking stop. I can't move out, because I don't have the financial means to. Once again, trapped. and, I can't change things.

Andy will most likely get hired at UFP in Ada, MI. He's ecstatic. I'm happy he found a job. Its still in goddamned MI. I can't control this. And I can't change it either.

Yep, I'm fucked. Lets just hope I manage to stay somewhat sane.

Tue, 03 Aug 2004 22:19:31 GMT

sometimes what you need is simply too much to ask.

Sun, 25 Jul 2004 23:26:03 GMT

You are Aviendha of the Nine Valley Sept of Taardad
Aiel! Yer kinda violent, but you are cool. One
kick-butt person. Heh. You are Elayne's first
sister and are in love with Rand al'Thor for
some reason.

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Wed, 21 Jul 2004 03:13:20 GMT

home again

Sun, 13 Jun 2004 22:45:19 GMT

So I moved yesterday. borrowed my parents van to get all my shit there, and now, I'm back home, since i had to bring the van home and get my car.

Room i'm using right now is tiny, and looks so sad with all the boxes. but I'm moving into another room at the end of the month, so there's no point in unpacking.

get to see Andy tonight. he's on his way back from MI right now, and will be home around 9 ish. I'm gonna spend the night there and then go back to Columbus tomorrow. I miss hom so much already, and its only been 2 days. weeks at a time is gonna suck.

i gtg... time for dinner.

see you all when i get internet again

thinking again

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 21:10:28 GMT

spent the night with Andy again. I love sleeping next to him, he's so comfy.

I told dad where i was, but he apparently didn't tell mom, so i'm in for it when i get home. Mom worries too much. for fucks sake, i'm 22. i'm an adult. i can take care of myself.

waiting for Andy to get out of the bathroom... contemplating signing into FFXI for a bit. I wanna see if i can make 6 with my WHM b4 i leave.

we're gonna head back to my house, i need to get some stuff done, and i think Andy's gonna bring his art stuff to do. basically we're doing that whole glued together thing for the next week, b4 i have to move. it just so happens that the weekend i move he has to go home to MI for various things, so he can't help. At least i have a place to live now. :) and its nto with JAson. good. Tho I'm gonna meet with him sat night to do teh whole exchange thing. I need that $$, and he;s more than welcome to the ring. I'm just glad its finally over. all the kinks worked out, all done and stuff. He still wants to be friends, and I think we might be avle to pull that off, just not quite yet. I need more time away from him, let my emotional stability come totally back. He hurt me too much in too many ways for me to just forget that easily.

intewesting

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 21:01:19 GMT

Hurt: Something or someone has caused you a
deep kind of pain. You feel bitter and alone,
and seek out beauty in unusual places. You try
to find comfort but are unsuccessful. You want
to feel stable again.

What emotional state are you?
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screwed

Sat, 05 Jun 2004 10:30:22 GMT

so i checked my balance today.

barely enough to cover deposit.

meanwhile, i thought i had about $200 left in there, for bills, etc, and first months rent.

why do i not have this money? it looks like a check i deposited bounced.

why am i not fucking surprised? the person who wrote me this check cannot handle money. i know this, and yet i fucking trusted him anyway. I plan to call him and confront him about it. because guess what. Without that money i am royally screwed. as it was, i was trying to figure out how i was gonna eat. now its i don't know how i'm gonna pay for gas to get to and from work and school. or even pay for gas to move.

fuck.

Mon, 31 May 2004 19:31:17 GMT

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Thu, 27 May 2004 01:07:01 GMT

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Mon, 24 May 2004 21:38:19 GMT

Moving is going to hurt like a bitch.

so its official...

Mon, 24 May 2004 21:17:37 GMT

I'll be in New York City July 9-11.... for 5th HOPE, a hacker's conference. I'm going with Andy and his friend, which I am really looking forward to. Even tho I gotta drive from Columbus to Pgh, then Andy and I will go from Pgh to New York. Andy's car, of course, what with getting 50 miles to the gallon... gotta love diesel cars.

So things are going pretty damned good for me right now, hanging out with friends, and spending time with a very cool guy. Pitt's being weird, and even tho we paid my acct balance, says we didn't. Dad has the cleared check tho, so I gotta get this straightened out, otherwise, I'm not moving in June. I dunno... I'm not sure I wanna move anymore, at least not now. Its gonna be interesting for the first bit, esp b4 I get living situation things worked out. Ninya and I at least have a plan, its just a matter of figuring out the details of that plan.

Hope I hear from Jason soon, I wanna get that worked out as well, and ASAP.

Work tonight @ 7... which rather sucks... 7-12, then going to Andy's for ribs, which will be much fun. I think we're going to the Zoo on Thurs, but I gotta double check with him. I havn't been there in forever, and I really wanna get there again b4 I move. Its those little things that were big parts of your life that you hve to see again one more time b4 you go... like the Zoo, going up the Cathedral of Learning, Pirate game, Science Center, and of course, Kennywood. Dunno when I'll get to those last 3 again, but I have too... say goodbye to Pittsburgh, y'know? I'm hoping Columbus has those little traditions things as well, but I dunno... it just seems to me that Columbus just doesn't have any real character to it... its all bland, your typical midwest town. White bread and all that.

maybe i'm boing a snob, maybe I'm just being your typical born and raised Pittsburgher... can't get us out with a crowbar. I love my city... I make no excuses or appologies for that. Pittsburgh is a great city, it has a great feel to it. I hope I settle in a place with a similar feel, but where that will be, I have yet to see. As of right now, I'm still thinking England, but things may change in the next 4 years.

Life does throw you curveballs, make no mistake aobut that... but to quote Gandalf... "All you have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to you."

Life is funny some times, y'know? Things fall into your lap when you're not looking, and turn out to be wonderful.

"More life... the great work begins"

:D